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[This may be text but he can picture the flustered excuse making.]

Did something happen?

No?

Maybe.

Maybe?

what's wrong with maybe???

Either something happened or it didn't!

You'll laugh at me.

I won't laugh.

[no guarantees he won't give a long look of exasperation, though]

Okay.

I can't stop thinking about Mytho.

[Why would he ever laugh at that?]

I think about him too.

And it's like. We're here and we're not helping him and I'm enjoying my life like this. Isn't that wrong?

[Ah. It's not a surprise. But it's no wonder she's torn up about it.]

It's not wrong.

If there's a way we can help, we will. But right now there isn't.

I don't think enjoying the time you have is a bad thing.

[It's not something he's good at, to be sure, but there's something enviable about such a straightforward approach to life.]

Even like this? The way I am?

I chose this to help Mytho. Now I'm just helping myself.

[If this were in person, or voice, he'd preface his next question with a muttered "idiot." As it is...he still does that, but leaves it out of the text.]

Do you think I'm just helping myself?

No! Of course not! You'd never stop helping Mytho.

So why am I different?

You chose to help Mytho. You chose to face Princess Tutu's fate. Being here doesn't stop that from being true.

But I'm not doing anything. Am I?

[He's not, either. Even before coming here, he'd never done enough. A useless knight, never quite managing to protect those he swore to, never quite managing to do what was asked of him.

Ahiru's done so much more.]

You're worrying to much about it.

You being you is enough. As soon as you see some way to help, you'll rush in without thinking.

I do too think! A lot! I've been thinking a lot right now!

That's because you haven't seen anything to rush at lately.

Then I'll just have to find something!

That's not what I meant!

[He thinks? He may have lost his own train of thought here.]

I know I can't do much but I can't stop.

[Hang on. He rubs at his forehead, trying to circle back around to what his point probably was.]

You don't have to stop. [He knows she never could, anyway.] You just have to stop focusing on the things you can't do right now.

That's easy to say. What do I focus on?

What about different ways to fight corruption?

[That's helpful. Though he's not sure if it's connected enough to their challenges back in the story that it'll make her more worried, rather than less.]

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